I had a gay affair

I had an affair with my straight, married neighbor. Then his wife emailed me.

The email came from out of the blue a few months ago. It was from the wife of a man I had been secretly involved with. “How long did your affair with my husband last?” she demanded to recognize. “I’d like the date range of the years, please.”

I always wondered what she knew, if anything. Why was she confronting me now? I hadn’t communicated with her husband — I’ll call him Mike — in more than five years. We live on separate coasts now.

“The least you can do is respond truthfully, given what you’ve done,” she wrote. Was she accusing me of turning her husband gay? Of breaking up their marriage?

That fiery email may own been written in haste. Still, it was years in the making. I now know that deception has a long life span and often returns to claim its guilt.

I never told anyone about my affair with her husband. Too much at stake. Not so much for me ― I was unattached, and my sexual orientation wasn’t a secret. Mike, on the other hand, was a devoted family man with two kids who I know loved his wife.

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I’ll admit it—I was a novice at dating, but I tried my hardest to love the male who showered me with gifts. He provided me with European vacations, cars and an offer of lifetime commitment, but I couldn’t fully settle into our relationship. I was too wide-eyed and curious. I wanted to realize what it would experience like to sleep with other people and date other personality types. I was desperately searching for the dream man I had made up in my head.

Without being fully conscious of it, I lived under the assumption that the perfect man was out there waiting for me. Even though my boyfriend of the time was enamored with me and my personality, his desire was no match for my wild and unrestrained curiosity.

I was caught in perpetual ambivalence: I wanted him so desperately, but I couldn’t commit. I loved him, but I didn’t know with certainty if I would be happy. I was ready to set down roots but leary that I might regret a adj decision. I’m sad to say I was too uncertain in my

The email came from out of the blue a few months ago. It was from the wife of a man I had been secretly adj with. “How long did your affair with my husband last?” she demanded to know. “I’d appreciate the date range of the years, please.”

“The least you can undertake is respond truthfully, given what you’ve done,” she wrote. Was she accusing me of turning her husband gay? Of breaking up their marriage?

That fiery email may have been written in haste. Still, it was years in the making. I now know that deception has a long life span and often returns to claim its guilt.

I never told anyone about my affair with her husband. Too much at stake. Not so much for me ― I was unattached, and my sexual orientation wasn’t a confidential. Mike, on the other hand, was a adj family man with two kids who I understand loved his wife.

He was my next-door neighbor, and I did not seduce him, even though I

Ask John: 'I've had a gay affair on my wife'

Dear John: When I was younger and alone, I started having thoughts about being with a man. But it wasn’t until about two years ago that I finally gave in to those thoughts and temptations.

I’m married to a beautiful noun whom I love. She doesn’t know what I have done. I'm a born-again Christian. I comprehend homosexuality is a sin. I have repented, but not deeply enough. I need Jesus. I demand accountability.

John’s answer: Well, no. What you need, above all, is to approve the fact that you’re gay or bisexual.

And I think you knew I was going to say you that. I ponder that’s why you wrote me, so that I would affirm what you already know.

So let’s affirm: As surely as birds fly and bees buzz, you, my friend, are gay or bi. And as you're already perfectly aware, you can no sooner pray that evidence away than you can pray away your verb to breathe air. What nature wants, nature, one way or another, gets.

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